Therapy this week was amazing!! I couldn't of been any happier with the way Kenz was responding and being involved. She was cracking up laughing at everything. She kept dancing and showing off her light up shoes by jumping. It was incredible for me to just sit there and watch her be so involved with another person just the way she would be with me. Kenz loves using the copier and making pictures, as she calls them of her hand or other toys. One problem has been she will never ask her dr to make one, in the past the closest we have gotten is her pointing or telling me she wants one. As we pack up she requests to make one to me. I told her I am not the one to ask that she needs to ask the dr. She kept looking at him and after a few minutes I reminded her to ask for a picture. Then we hear, "picture" being directed at Dr. Wartel. She was so excited to know she was able to ask by herself for it and verbally, not just with a head shake. Therapy blew me away so I was having high hopes for dance class the next day.
My hopes were quickly stepped on and squished down when we walked in. It was observation week. Which means almost all parents and a lot of grandparents packed into the dance room. In Kenz's terms it meant her shutting down and anxiety sky rocketing. I tried to have a positive outlook still but it was difficult. She wouldn't do anything on her own. She wanted nothing to do with the gymnastic mats, which I think it was because she would be somersaulting or rolling towards a punch of parents. If I tried to get her to do something she would start shaking and crying. It was tough to watch all the little girls showing off their moves in front of everyone as Kenz just sits there. She shows off all her dance stuff at home, if only everyone else could see it. One thing that was really difficult was hearing another girl noticing Kenz being "shy." As we are leaving I hear this girl say, "look mommy its the shy girl who won't do things in dance." It was hard to hear someone else Kenzs age noticing that shes different. The parents didn't know what to say. Its hard for me because I don't want to constantly explain Selective Mutism to people especially when most people don't even know what it is. There have been many times when people look at me like I am making excuses for her.
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